The end
My last blog ever, honestly, I've always lowkey dreaded starting these blogs, however, I find myself immersed in my thoughts and emotions when I write down what I did and how I felt. I'm not a journal girl anymore, I used to be when I was younger, but then life got busy, and I got busy, and although most times I'm not physically busy, my mind is. It's hard when you know you have so much to do yet there's no willpower for u to start. That's how I felt about my blogs, however, the key to this was just to get my butt up, sit in front of my laptop, and START. Once I start writing the first word, it's hard to stop. Journaling may sound boring, well to me, but I find myself most reflective when I am writing these things down, it like kind of therapeutic in a way. To think about all my thoughts. Weird, but relaxing. It's like I'm telling myself that I'm doing fine, and I have nothing to worry about you know?
Anyway, AEP wasn't a big part of my school life, however, it will be one I look back at too much. I realized at the end of my school year, that AEP wasn't supposed to be some tedious class in which we just learn about words and writing and stuff, or if it was idk it didn't work. It was more about learning about myself, who I am, and in a way touching back on my roots, who I am as a person. Who I have become and how this will help me in the future. I've lost touch with myself these past few years, I used to enjoy writing, arts, and crafts, and just generally, trying new things. However these days, I find myself doing nothing, thinking of nothing, just thinking about my never-ending to-do list. All my hobbies and interests have now just become my "to-dos". That's the problem. I used to blame my environment however these days I realize that it has more to do with how I think, and my perspective. I have to start looking at these tasks as like, quests, I don't have to do it, I WANT to do it. idk hehe
Yes, I need to stop yapping around, I'm grateful for all the AEP classes I've attended, and I'm probably gonna miss everything about it hehehd, the awkward laughs, the stares, the afternoon wordles or hurdle or square or whatever others do we've done. It has been really fun, and although I really found myself dragging myself across the floor to get to AEP (sarcastically) I find myself actually excited for what's to come in that class.
I will start doing all the things I want to do and all that I've said. NEXT ACADEMIC YEAR. I'm too lazy right now and just wanna get over this school year. Thank you, Ms. Disa, you've taught me a lot about myself. :)) I will KINDA miss you, I'm jk i will miss you a lot :D
IZZAHTHEGREAT OUT
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