Ayse - Blog 1.1

 "The Pressure is Existent"

Starting this makes me realize that this particular blog will be my last 'first blog' in high school. That's mad. Everything seems weird now that it's my final school year here is FIS. Why...? Well, that's because I am now a senior, a senior that is lost to tell you the truth. A senior that isn't aware of where she is headed, all she says is 'life goes on', it does though, doesn't it? Being a senior means getting closer to being an adult, it means you have more responsibilities to take, and it means you have more decisions to make which will define who you are as you age. One of the few things I am worried about is getting into a university I desire. Seems pretty basic, right? But I honestly have no idea where I want to study. I do not have a clear plan of what I want to accomplish, nor have a particular dream. But one thing I know for sure is that I want to improve my current skills. Skills like sports, communication, teamwork, leadership and speaking in public. Let's give the last skill, 'speaking in public' quick attention.

About AEP classes...

Now that I have grabbed your attention let me talk about speaking in public for a bit. I quickly searched the average percentage of people who have a fear of speaking in public and well when I say I was flabbergasted I wouldn't be joking. As I saw the number 75% in big fonts, I was surprised, to say the least. It was stated that around 75% of the population in the world has a fear of public speaking to a certain degree, which means that more than 200 million people feel nervous about talking to others. Insane now, isn't it? You aren't the only one! Personally, when it comes to speaking, especially in front of an audience in a formal manner, I get very nervous. 

As the syllabus popped out big and clear on the screen I was scared but glad simultaneously. Scared because I would have to present in front of the class multiple times throughout the semester, which is included in my 'top 5 most feared things' list by the way. Although I was also glad because this meant that I would get to improve my skills when it comes to speaking in front of people and it would allow me to express myself with confidence later on. Just want to put it out here that I am horrible when it comes to speaking and it gets worse especially when I have to present a topic. 

The announcement of the syllabus later continued with a long lecture on 'Presentations'. Miss Disa mentioned that the methods of teaching that people nowadays use while presenting have become tiresome. The educator stands and reads long slides of paragraphs. The mindset is that boring classes are more educational and serious while fun classes are the polar opposite. Although, I entirely agree with Miss Disa when it comes to this topic and not the traditional mindset, that is because when students get to learn with creative methods of teaching, they will surely be more willing to participate and take risks in classes(talking from experience as a student myself🙋‍♀️).

After further discussions, Miss Disa asked 3 students to present their power points in class. I was one of them, actually the first one, of course, I was terrified, not to mention that I wasn't ready. But yeah, I gave it a go and regret everything I did and say after I sat down back on my chair, but that is okay because that is the first reason why we students are in school. It is to make mistakes and learn from those mistakes. So to whoever is reading this right now, don't be scared to make mistakes, rather be motivated to get better😉. I know that might have sounded cliche, but it is most certainly true. Anyways, lastly, we started our rubrics on Presenting. Made me realise how horribly I just presented and the things I have missed and done wrong both in my presentation and myself as the speaker.

That is all for this last first blog of mine, I appreciate you for reading up until this point!! Hope you have/had a great day<3 

Aau revoir everyone!